Tropic of Cancer

I feel like I am running out of time. Am I? I have that nervous feeling in my stomach. Do I need to be? I feel rushed, like I need to hurry up and jump in the shower and start getting ready. Do I? I look in the mirror daily, it's unavoidable when I'm getting out of the shower, and I do appear to have aged quite a bit. All my friends have aged too and now I'm sad. I think of them all so often if they only knew. They might feel bad and I wouldn't want that. So it's time to take care of some "inner" business and start anew. I hope I see my friends again and we laugh like we used to. I hope they think of me too and we will have fun again. Where did the time go. So foolish we are to let it pass us this way. So, so naive not to appreciate one another more. So I guess it's true then....I should be more conscious of the time and feel a bit nervous not to let it slip by. I need to get myself in the shower and start fresh, AGAIN, needless to say.

I'm mean seriously!!!! It is a freakin joke! Talk about being a "work horse" for someone else, making them millions upon millions of dollars while they "strive" to pay you the very least possible. Every other day there's a new meeting about how your not offering enough, selling enough, not contributing enough, not positive enough, not a team player enough, blah, blah, blah! Need I go on? This is "call center" life. Get your bum to work on time and don't be even a minute late, jump on the phone and start taking the one billion calls that are waiting in que, maximize that call now! Don't take too long on each call but yet don't rush through it. Don't forget to offer additional products and OH! That new "security" feature we are now adding on to every order, don't forget to offer it and follow the "legal" jargon or else!!! OH! Did you make sure and verify everything?? What about those pens, labels, stamps? Don&#

So here I am up late again sitting in he dark with just the glow of my laptop, listening to the crickets chirp the night away. Lately I can not sleep well. I seem to toss and turn all night. My back is killing me and I feel anxious, nervous, scared. I'm wondering what is causing this and I am thinking that I really should see a doctor about this. I do not have a job therefore I do not have medical insurance so I hesitate. I'm thinking that my recent unemployment status is what is plaguing me. Although I have earned two degrees and traveled the world I feel as though I have failed in life and perhaps that is what is keeping me up nights. I am 36 years old and have not even gotten my professional career started. I feel like I am running out of time. I feel desperate, scared, anxious. I want to purchase a home, have a child, help my husband start his business, travel, put away money and none of this can happen until I get a job. I have had the most horrible luck this year. I have

Day One: Wednesday, March 11, 2009 "Docent" Training : Today was one of those days where one would slip on the comfy pj's, fuzzy slippers and grab a warm blanket and curl up on the sofa or bed in ones cozy home, BUT NOT ME! Let me back track a bit. In an effort to empower myself and make myself useful while also learning about something that I am passionate about,art. I decided amidst my "between job" status I would either intern or volunteer somewhere I could gain working knowledge in my field which is Communication/Public Relations. What I really would like to do is work in Events Management, Special Events or something in that realm. So one day I picked up the phone, called the Museo Alameda, asked to speak with someone in Events, PR or Marketing, and basically just flat out asked if they needed any help with some of the up and coming events I saw on their website. Luckily for me they did. So here I am now writing a blog about it. It turned out to be

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