Tropic of Cancer

I feel like I am running out of time. Am I? I have that nervous feeling in my stomach. Do I need to be? I feel rushed, like I need to hurry up and jump in the shower and start getting ready. Do I? I look in the mirror daily, it's unavoidable when I'm getting out of the shower, and I do appear to have aged quite a bit. All my friends have aged too and now I'm sad. I think of them all so often if they only knew. They might feel bad and I wouldn't want that. So it's time to take care of some "inner" business and start anew. I hope I see my friends again and we laugh like we used to. I hope they think of me too and we will have fun again. Where did the time go. So foolish we are to let it pass us this way. So, so naive not to appreciate one another more. So I guess it's true then....I should be more conscious of the time and feel a bit nervous not to let it slip by. I need to get myself in the shower and start fresh, AGAIN, needless to say.

I'm mean seriously!!!! It is a freakin joke! Talk about being a "work horse" for someone else, making them millions upon millions of dollars while they "strive" to pay you the very least possible. Every other day there's a new meeting about how your not offering enough, selling enough, not contributing enough, not positive enough, not a team player enough, blah, blah, blah! Need I go on? This is "call center" life. Get your bum to work on time and don't be even a minute late, jump on the phone and start taking the one billion calls that are waiting in que, maximize that call now! Don't take too long on each call but yet don't rush through it. Don't forget to offer additional products and OH! That new "security" feature we are now adding on to every order, don't forget to offer it and follow the "legal" jargon or else!!! OH! Did you make sure and verify everything?? What about those pens, labels, stamps? Don...

So here I am up late again sitting in he dark with just the glow of my laptop, listening to the crickets chirp the night away. Lately I can not sleep well. I seem to toss and turn all night. My back is killing me and I feel anxious, nervous, scared. I'm wondering what is causing this and I am thinking that I really should see a doctor about this. I do not have a job therefore I do not have medical insurance so I hesitate. I'm thinking that my recent unemployment status is what is plaguing me. Although I have earned two degrees and traveled the world I feel as though I have failed in life and perhaps that is what is keeping me up nights. I am 36 years old and have not even gotten my professional career started. I feel like I am running out of time. I feel desperate, scared, anxious. I want to purchase a home, have a child, help my husband start his business, travel, put away money and none of this can happen until I get a job. I have had the most horrible luck this year. I have ...

Day One: Wednesday, March 11, 2009 "Docent" Training : Today was one of those days where one would slip on the comfy pj's, fuzzy slippers and grab a warm blanket and curl up on the sofa or bed in ones cozy home, BUT NOT ME! Let me back track a bit. In an effort to empower myself and make myself useful while also learning about something that I am passionate about,art. I decided amidst my "between job" status I would either intern or volunteer somewhere I could gain working knowledge in my field which is Communication/Public Relations. What I really would like to do is work in Events Management, Special Events or something in that realm. So one day I picked up the phone, called the Museo Alameda, asked to speak with someone in Events, PR or Marketing, and basically just flat out asked if they needed any help with some of the up and coming events I saw on their website. Luckily for me they did. So here I am now writing a blog about it. It turned out to be...

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"An original does not conform to our expectations, she changes them, forever."~Unknown "An original is hard to find but easy to recognize."~Anonymous (One of my favorites: I was given this quote on a plaque by a cousin of mine.) "I do not seek, I find." ~Unkown (Given to me by my mom) "Life is not about perfection, it's about completion." ~Jane Fonda "Only those who dare truly live."~ Unknown (My personal favorite.) "Evil is powerless if the good are unafraid."~Unknown "Where ever you go, go with all your heart." ~Unknown (Another personal favorite.) "I got a brand new attitude and I'm gonna wear it tonight." ~Pink

For Immediate Release ARTS AND EATS 2007 The best of the best in culinary and original art was reason to celebrate San Antonio, Texas- The ballots are in! This year’s Arts and Eats winners have reason to celebrate. Thirty of San Antonio’s top chefs showcased their best of the best in culinary art and cuisine at the beautiful grounds of the Tobin Estate. The food, wine and art gave this years festival attendees a lot to eat, drink and talk about. As part of the event 28 restaurants premiered their culinary art by serving and competing for best appetizer, entrée and dessert. Original artworks decorated the festival grounds, Armin Marmolejo Quintent supplied the music and a silent auction made for a fun filled night. · Grand Prize Restaurant, Las Ramblas · Stuffed Calamari with Chorizo · Best Appetizer, Azuca · Arepada · Merit Appetizer, Piatti · Gorgonzola Custard with shaved pear, baby greens and balsamic drizzle · Best Entrée, Bistro Thyme · unknown · Merit Entrée, Ranch 616 · Venison ...

As I start this blog tonight I know that I will not finish it tonight. There is so much to cover here but I will attempt to make a dent. So I met my husband in Madrid, Spain in the summer of 2006. I had been there for the third time since the summer of 2005. I had been on a study abroad program a year earlier and had met and fell in love with a Moroccan/"non practicing Muslim" man (those were his words.) After the program had ended I stayed on and moved in with him. We spent the rest of the summer getting to know each other better and even spent a week at my families condominium in Marbella which is in Anda Lucia, the south of Spain. When summer came to an end we made a commitment to each other and planned to see each other again when I had my next break from school. I returned to school and we kept it going. Do not get me wrong, it was tough and there was little communication at times but we kept it going. I guess each of us assumed the other was still in it. I kept the fait...

OMG! I have one word to say and that is WOW! WOW! Seriously WOW! What in the world happened to high school? I was invited to go to my nephew/godson's talent show at my old almamater. I was excited about the evening because I had been to previous Christmas concerts of his at the school and was always pleased with the performances and impressed with the talents of my nephew and the other students. My nephew Jeremy, in addition to being in the top 5% of his class is a talented musician which can be attributed to my brother who is also a talented musician. It does run in the blood. So as we ventured out to start our evening, Mom, Dad, me and my brother (Jeremy's dad) climbed into the car and headed toward the campus. I always get this indescribable feeling as I head up the campus drive way. A bit of nostalgia, anxiety, excitement and sadness overcomes me. Everything still looks pretty much the same which adds to the rush of emotion. We park the car and head into the auditoriu...

Well hello there. I am happy to announce that today is my first day at blogging. I was introduced to bloggin about four years ago while I was earning my Associates degree. I had no earthly idea what the hec the lecturer was talking about and felt very inadequate as I was listening to him explain to us that it was sooo easy that even his tween daughter was doing it with video uploads and all. Anyway here I am four years later after having lunch with a good friend who urged me that this would be another great way to market myself. I can say that I am finally at a point where I feel confidant enough to do this. So thank you dear friend, thank you. I am excited about what's to come and look forward to my future blogs and subscribing to other inspirational blog writers. Here's to you and me!