Tropic of Cancer

So here I am up late again sitting in he dark with just the glow of my laptop, listening to the crickets chirp the night away. Lately I can not sleep well. I seem to toss and turn all night. My back is killing me and I feel anxious, nervous, scared. I'm wondering what is causing this and I am thinking that I really should see a doctor about this. I do not have a job therefore I do not have medical insurance so I hesitate. I'm thinking that my recent unemployment status is what is plaguing me. Although I have earned two degrees and traveled the world I feel as though I have failed in life and perhaps that is what is keeping me up nights. I am 36 years old and have not even gotten my professional career started. I feel like I am running out of time. I feel desperate, scared, anxious. I want to purchase a home, have a child, help my husband start his business, travel, put away money and none of this can happen until I get a job. I have had the most horrible luck this year. I have

Day One: Wednesday, March 11, 2009 "Docent" Training : Today was one of those days where one would slip on the comfy pj's, fuzzy slippers and grab a warm blanket and curl up on the sofa or bed in ones cozy home, BUT NOT ME! Let me back track a bit. In an effort to empower myself and make myself useful while also learning about something that I am passionate about,art. I decided amidst my "between job" status I would either intern or volunteer somewhere I could gain working knowledge in my field which is Communication/Public Relations. What I really would like to do is work in Events Management, Special Events or something in that realm. So one day I picked up the phone, called the Museo Alameda, asked to speak with someone in Events, PR or Marketing, and basically just flat out asked if they needed any help with some of the up and coming events I saw on their website. Luckily for me they did. So here I am now writing a blog about it. It turned out to be